Will you?

Will my family, friends and loved ones miss me when I'm gone?
-The question on my mind during my MRT trip today.

Seriously, will you miss me when I'm gone?
I doubt.
Will you actually say "Aww I miss Marj" or "How I wish Marj is still with us today"?
I doubt.
Will you keep my memories alive forever?
I doubt.
But one this is sure, I'll miss you when I'm gone.

But then again, LIFE is too beautiful for me to end it.

x0x0,
_M_

LLE 2009 Experience

I know we have this "oath" not to tell anyone what the exam was all about and I won't. I'll make kwento na lang how was the two longest days of our lives went.

First Day.

Slept at around 4am. Woke up--5:30am.
I was sleepy the whole day and luckily I managed to not fall asleep during the exam.
Dad cooked for me and made hatid to MLQU. Yay!
First two subjects were quite easy. Not expecting it to be that too easy though.
Third and last subject was a shocker. I don't know how I passed that subject. Yikes.
First day ended around 3pm. What a Tiring first day! Got to ready for the 2nd and last day.
Went home tired and frustrated.


Second Day.
Tried to review the other night but I was so tired that I fell asleep while reviewing. Left my lampshade on.
Woke up at around 430am.
Feeling at little frustrated, I needed to think positive and be ready.
First subject was my fave exam.
Second and last subject was a blah. This time, I knew that I didn't pass. Thank God for my co-LLE. Happy people=Happy friends.
We all went to Trinoma for dinner.
Met up with someone later that night. And he was sure that I'll pass. I didn't believe him.


Two Days After.
Lucky Friday the 13th.
UPLISSA's induction of new members and officers. Dinner with Dean Vyva and Sir Igor. After our dinner, we went outside and chatted how the exam was and Dean Vyva and Sir Igor kept on assuring us that we'll make it.
At around 8:30pm, someone called and told us that the results were already out. Ran inside to check and was too shaky to do so.
Jen screamed that she passed. Chad followed. Uh oh, they didn't mentioned my name. I checked and saw my first name and middle name, I screamed, jumped, and cried. All UPLISSA 2009 Graduates passed the LLE. Wow! Dean Vyva was so happy to hear the news and we were jumping and screaming like crazy. Yikes!

It was the longest week ever. But the happiest one I should say. :)

Here's the link: LLE 2009 Board Passers
#81 DACILLO, MARJORIE CANEBA
I didn't managed to be one of the top10 but whatever! I'm happy to pass.
Thank God.

x0x0
_M_

My Sweet September

Two months I ago, I thought I'll be fine not being with someone. But last night and the times that I wasn't with him was a sad night to not be able to share my happy moments with him.

Two months I ago, I wasn't even searching for him but he came.

Two months I ago, I'm happy with my life but not this happy now that I have him in my life.

Two months I ago, I would say that it sucks to have someone reporting your day to day activities but now I'm enjoying everything.

Exactly two months I ago, I met this someone that changed my life. He loved and cared for me like no one else. Two months I ago, I fell in love with this great guy who value his family more than anything in this world. He's my right kind of wrong. My sweet september! :)

x0x0
_M_

Yay

Tomorrow's a big battle for me and my fellow LLE examinees. Two days of nerve wracking exam. Yay! :(

On that note, my boys--dad and 2 older bros--are unusually makulit tonight. I know they're trying to cheer me up but its not working. :( I'm trying to stay calm and to relax but I'm failing. I wish mom will call tonight. I need to hear her voice.

Oh well, goodluck and godbless to all!

See u in MLQU. lol

Panic Attak

*sniff*

I have only 6 days before the dreaded Board Exam. Boo!

Now I'm having panic attack.

I thought I was ready to take the board exam but when I started answering this reviewer and saw the results I feel super sad. Damn. I failed every single test. F!

I always say that I can do this but with the review I review, I'm not going to make it.

FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION. Fuck.

I need a HUG. Seriously.

Just a HUG.

No pep talk, no pressure, no lies.

JUST A HUG.

Writing this post is not calming me in any way. Huhu

6days... 5days... 4days... 3... 2.... 1. Boom!

[Ifeelsuicidal.Iwanttodie.EPICFAIL.Mode]

Starting All Over Again

Don't you just hate starting all over again?
Starting from zero or scratch? 'Coz I do!
I hate it. All those hard work didn't pay off. Argh!

Hard Life?

But come to think of it...

Starting all over again gives you a chance to start all over that you can do things differently and that will eventually turn out to be the best work you ever did?

Starting all over again is my chance to correct all the mistakes that I've done.

Starting all over again is knowing what I really want to do.

Starting all over again is getting that another reason to be the best.

Starting all over again is knowing that I'm not perfect but is fortunate to have THAT another chance to change and do it all over again.

I'm giving my self another chance to start all over again.
And this time, it's FOR REAL.

x0x0,
_M_

Cute story between me and my parents

While talking to my mom on the phone...

Me: "Ma, wala pa akong sweldo... Ang daming gastos..."
Mom: "Ok lang yan... Ilang araw ka na ba nagwo-work?"
Me: "Isang buwan na... Oo, isang buwan na."
Dad on the background... "Mahigit ng isang buwan..."
Mom: "Pa, mahigit na palang isang buwan nagwo-work anak mo!"
Me: "Bakit Ma? Magbibigay kayo ng pera?"
Mom laughed and she relayed my message to my dad. They both laughed.
Mom to Me: "Sige, padadalhan kita ng pera bukas!"
Me: "Wala pa akong sweldo... Gusto ko ng maraming pera."
Mom: "Hindi maganda yan, wag madaming pera."
Me: "Hehe opo."

Simple things that made me miss my parents.
Simple kulitan that really means a lot to me.

And yes, it's been a month since I started working and unfortunately, wala parin akong sweldo. Thank God for my generous parents! They never stopped supporting us. They are not perfect parents but they are trying to be one. I love them dearly. I'm looking forward to our future travels. *wink*

To my parents.
I love you Ma and Pa.
x0x0,
_M_

Macro is <3!

In the two months of my "vacation" in our province, I took some macro shots in my dad's garden. You heard it right, my dad is the one (the only one, I guess) that has a green thumb in our family. Here's two of my faves shots that I took.

For the friendship!

Last night, I went out with the two sweetest girls I've ever met in my life. I'm lucky to have them as my girlfriends. It was a sad night for us because Ara's leaving nextweek for Oman (Muscat) because of work and she's staying there for 3 years. Yes, 3 years. So Teddy and I made a promise that we'll visit her next year whether in Europe or in Oman. And I can't wait for that Europe trip.

Last night also was full of goodbyes for us three. Since we're all working, we need to manage to have time to meet and make kwento to one another especially about of love life. Yikee! We said goodbyes to our past love. We said goodbye to heartaches. We said goodbye to College and welcome the world of Yuppies. Hehe. But as they said, goodbye doesn't mean forever and it doesn't mean we'll never be together again. It's just a temporary status. But one thing for sure, we'll never say goodbye to the friendship that started in the mountains of Baguio and in the university we call UP Naming Mahal.

Teddy and Ara, thanks for the sweetest memories during college. Now, let's make sweetest-est memories as we face the challenge of the working world. Cheesy! I'll miss you both. And you never know how much I love love you and our friendship. My idols when it comes to love.

Cheers, dearests!
x0x0,
_M_

Treasures of the Islands at SM Megamall Megatrade Hall 1 and 2

Treasures of the Islands is part of the One Town One Product (OTOP) trade fair of different towns, provinces, and municipalities in the country. All they native products are showcased in this fair. And for the third time, Daet, Camarines Norte joined this awesome event. Daet On The Go booth is headed by my dearest aunt, Mrs. Lilia Avellana, Head of Technology and Livelihood Development Center of our province. I asked my dad if we can drop by the fair and he agreed. We met up with my aunt. While the two grown-ups were talking about something, I got the chance to see the booths. I was awed with the products from bags, shoes, furniture, knitted clothes, and foods. I bought a pair of shoes from Liliw, Laguna for only 350 pesos and sling bag made from cow's leather for only 180pesos. Cheap prices for quality products!

So, I'm inviting you all to visit and support Treasures of the Islands (OTOP) and don't forget to drop by at the Daet Food Processors, Inc. booth no.89.

Information:
Treasures of the Islands (OTOP)
SM Megamall Bldg. A
Megatrade Hall 1 and 2
July 8-12, 2009

I support Filipino Products...
x0x0,
_M_

Two Months of Bum-ness

After I graduated last April 2009, I together with my family went home to Bicol. The original plan was for me to take at least a month break before going back here in the Metro to find work. Two weeks in my "break"/vacation, I was bored already with just watching TV and staying at home. High School friends are still in Naga or Manila reviewing for the Nursing Board Exam that's why I'm stuck in front of the TV. Trivia: Almost half of my HS batchmates took Nursing. My parents planned a party for me there but unfortunately due to heavy raining (three weeks of non-stop rain), I decided not to have the party because most of my friends are still reviewing.

I never got to go out unless I'm with my parents. During these weekly dinners and TV time with them that I got to bond with my parents again. Most of the time they aren't home and I'm stuck with the house help. But, it was my chance to be the "bunso" of our family again. I love how I've spent my two months getting to know my parents more and just enjoying and loving every minute being together. I've never had so much fun being with them. Probably, eleven years of not having that kind of bonding with my parents took a toll in our relationship and it was my chance to mend it. I'm super very uber happy that I made my parents happy and proud for what I've accomplished. 'twas the only gift I can gift them after fourteen years of studying, paying for my tuition, and for giving me everything.

If you're reading my blog, you'll know that I have two things I wanted to do during my stint in Bicol. First is to go to different white beaches in our province (which I wasn't able to do for some reason) and second, to register for 2010 elections which I was able to do (thanks for my dad's constant reminder that I need to register). Though I wasn't able to accomplish the first one, I was able to have a student driver's license and after four months I can get the professional driver's license. I also learned (of course) how to drive. Yeah! Thanks to my parents (for the van and fuel and food too) and Cousin Henry for teaching me how to drive. It was a nice experience. The moment I laid my hands on the steering wheel I know I was born to drive. Haha. Seriously, I love to drive fast. It keeps me awake. I also love the feeling of taking control.

I'll continue my driving lessons when I go back to Bicol this weekend.
And yes, I'll stay there for two weeks for my cousin's wedding. After that, I'm back here for the review and, hopefully, for work.

Definitely, I'll visit at least three white beaches (Cayucyucan, Pulang Daga, and Apuao Island) so that I'll have something to share with you. For the meantime, here's the pictures of Bagasbas Beach located in (my beloved province) Daet, Camarines Norte. Daet On The Go!

Loving Life.
x0x0,
_M_

Just weak

I am making a decision that few people will understand.
Some will ask or wonder "Why?".
I know, my parents will get mad but I hope they'll understand.
I'm not used with this kind of situation.
And I'm too weak to face all distraction.

Maybe I'm confused right now.
But I think this is what's right for me.

Four days...

Four days until the graduation day. I'm not excited. *sigh*
I don't want to attend the recognition and university graduation.
I hate the fuss.

Dang! I hate what I'm feeling right now.

Its 4:16am. I'm not sleepy.
And puhlease, don't tell me that I can't sleep because I'm excited blah blah.
I'm not.


NotGoingToTheGrad MODE.
x0x0,
_M_

iammarj says hello!

Welcome and Hello to the readers of this blog.
I thought I only have 4 readers but I'm wrong. Hehe

Happy reading!

Writing nonsense...
x0x0,
_M_

Graduation Gift

A week ago, I told my parents that I'm graduating with honors this April and they were thrilled upon hearing the news especially my dad. He always wanted/expected me to graduate with honors though it doesn't matter to me basta maka-grad ako, happy na ako. And that was my gift for their birthdays. The last thing I'll do is to disappoint my parents in any way. I love them to death.

I'm lucky to have parents like them. They're willing to give everything for their children and working very hard for us. Though we're not a perfect and always happy family, we manage to work on our differences and making it work for the sake of our family.

Also, a week ago my dad asked me what I want for my graduation. Then, I can't think of any. I'm not expecting anything, really. I just want them to be there on my graduation day and for them to be proud of me. I'm not a spoiled kid that gets everything and anything that I want. Seriously, I don't. Its always my parents asking me what I want rather than me asking them to buy me this and that. And since they're keep on asking me what I want, I've decided to ask them to buy me a new digicam not dslr. Coz I know I won't be able to maximize the use of the dslr and I consider myself as a point and shoot type of person. Its easy, breezy, clicky. I can ask them to buy me a new car, condo, or more expensive gift but I didn't.

Happiness is not based on material things but more on emotional and spiritual satisfaction.

And NO, I'm not receiving a 100,000pesos worth of graduation gift. Its too much. Those years of studying on a catholic and private school since elementary and high school and living a comfortable life during college is more than enough. I just want them to be proud of me. Of my achievements and accomplishments as a student and as their daughter. I want them to know how I love them and how grateful I am to them.

Them saying "I'm so proud of you, anak!" is enough as my graduation gift.

I love my parents.

x0x0,
_M_

Peyups Like No Other

A montage of my friends from UP Diliman and UP Baguio.
LIFE in UP will never be the same without them.
How lucky I am to have them now and forever.

Music: Fingerprints by Katy Perry.
Gotta Love Katy! :D

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

What I Can Do...

By end of this month, I'm home bound to our province for a month or so. I'll have my vacation there, finally. There are two major things I want to do when I'm there. First, to visit all the tourist/beautiful places in our province and blog about it. That's the only thing I can do, for now, for my beloved province. Second is focused on literacy programs in our province. It'll be great if I can donate as many books as I can with the help of our LGU and kind hearted individuals. I know the second one is a bit ambitious but there's no harm in trying.

And no, I'm not running for any position this May 2010 elections. I'm not even qualified to run, I think. I have other/bigger plans than seeking a position.

I'll register first as a voter. :)

x0x0,
_M_

Preparations...

Nine days unti my graduation day. Yipee! After 14 years of studying elementary, high school, and college. I want/hope for that day to be smooth and happy. I'm a li'l excited. So, I've decided to make a checklist just in case I forgot to buy and/or do something.

Grad Checklist:
1. The White Grad Dress--- ok
2. The matching shoes---ok, and I love it!
3. Jewelries from my mom
4. Make-up/Hair [set an appointment]
5. Spa to pamper myself a day before
6. Venue for grad dinner party
7. Invites for the grad dinner party
8. Myself of course. I can't afford to get sick that day. lol

tobeupdatedsoon. :)

x0x0,
_M_

UP LISSA AY 2007-2008 Montage

Make an on-line slide show at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Reasons Why [I think] I'm Still Single

Just read a post regarding why we, ladies, are still single. Then I realized, it's been three years since my last boyfriend. I made me think, why I'm still single right now.

1. I'm too busy. Lame excuse, right? But that's the truth. I was busy with my org and with my studies and having a boyfriend is not an option for me.

2. No one interests me. Oh, there's one but it failed. Haha. But other than that guy, nada.

3. I'm one of the boys. I grew up with my brothers and that explains why I get along mostly with boys within the group. And maybe, they find me as their lil sis or something.

4. I don't care much if everyone's hooking up. Seriously. I don't need another "problem" or "drama". I have enough of that with my family and having another problem is a no-no as of now.

5. I haven't found the one and I'm not searching. I'm waiting for the that guy to arrive. Na-traffic siguro. lol

6. When I met him, I'll now he's the one. I don't believe in having a criteria for finding the one, I mean who am I set to set a criteria for I [maybe] don't deserve the pretty-perfect-uber rich guy.

Bottomline is... I'm not in a rush of finding the one. I'm enjoying the single life right now and I know it won't be too soon that I'll find him. I'll wait. I know he's just out there, just lost.

x0x0
_M_

Oh how time flies...

I saw this picture of us (me and my thesis-mates) cramming for our thesis that day (and night)...

We had to ask our dearest Dean and Mang Fred to wait for us until all the printing is finished. They were kind enough to allowed us to stay until 8:30 that evening.

We were rushing things--pagination, preliminary pages, format, etc--just to submit our thesis that night.

We were rushing, cramming, and were very nervous that whole week for we don't know if we can make it to the deadline. Because some like Chad and Dan already passed their thesis but for me, von, rex, jen, and rico we're still revising and waiting to be endorsed by our advisers.

One week of late night thesis-ing at Katipunan or somewhere that has wi-fi and nice food. Once we did our thesis at Petron Square in Katipunan with Chad and Jen.

One week of no sleep thinking if we can make it to the deadline or not.

One week of bonding with my thesis-mates especially with Rico whom I never get to hang out with but because of our thesis, I can say I know Rico better now that I did before.

Prolly the best part of our one week of thesis-ing is the asaran moments. It was a super fun (and exhausting) week for us. Parang gusto ko pa ulet mag-thesis because of it. That was the only time that I feel that I'm doing my thesis. Petiks lang kasi ako before.

I'll post another blog of my college life journey to make it to the end.

For now, let me say my deepest gratitude to my family for the support (read: financial), my friends who keep me sane, my thesis-mates na haggard dahil sa thesis, to my adviser, to our Dean, and to God Almighty who helped a lot throughout the completion of my thesis.

Oh how time flies... Parang kelan lang grumad ng HS, now I'm about to graduate college.

xoxo
_M_


Photo Credits to Sir Igor

Finally!

Finally.
Thesis is done, baby!

OMG.
I can't believe it.

6months of writing.
More than 1000 pieces of paper wasted.
6 drafts were written.
14000 words.

ONE EFFIN' THESIS!

On the act of letting go and saying goobye

How hard is it to let go?

Letting go...
of someone you've learned to love;
of the activities you've loved doing; and
of the people you've learned to cherish...

I hate goodbyes.
But it's the reality
you must learn to say goodbye...
you must learn to let go.

I'm saying goodbye to the position that I cherished the most.
I'm saying goodbye to the SLIS Community that I;ve considered as my second home.
I'm saying goodbye to the UP LISSA, my second family.
I'm saying goodbye to UP that became my world for the past four years.

I am saying goodbye... for now.
I will always find my way back to my home, my family, and my world.
I'm happy to let go of one thing though, the position that I worked hard for.


Goodluck to the new batch of officers. Goodluck to the new breed of LISSAlistas!
You'll do better than we did. I know you will.
I have faith in you, guys.

To Jean, you'll be better than me.
Believe in what you can do.
It'll be hard at first but you'll do great, I'm sure.
Learn from my mistakes.
Nakasalalay sa president ang lahat, take it from me.
FAIL ang term ko (blame me) at alam ko naman na di un mangyayari sa inyo.

To the new officers,
GOODLUCK!
Kayang-kaya niyo yan...


See ya'round, peepz!



xoxo,
_M_

I'm scared to close my eyes and sleep for a while...
I'm scared that something bad will happen to me or to my loved ones while I'm sleeping...
I'm scared of where I am right now...

*sigh*

For once, I feared for my life...

On Working

By May 2009, I'm officially unemployed. Yeah! Not that I'm currently working but I'm about to graduate this April and has no work. I didn't apply yet but I'm starting to find job related to my undergrad course online. So far, I have no luck finding anything for undergrad. One of the things I'm looking for my work is the location. I'm planning to apply to work in Singapore but unfortunately I can't find anything. *sigh*

I'm a budding archivist. I'll apply in Masters in Archival Studies in University of British Columbia by next year. I hope to find part time work there before going back here in the Philippines. That's my initial plan as of now. My parents want me to take LAE, again. I'm thinking about it. I'm not that into law. But we'll see.

So many plans so little time? Nooot!

CONGRATS GRADUATES OF 2009!
Welcome to the reality of being unemployed! lol

xoxo,
_M_

On changes

A friend asked "Do you still know me?"
Then I realized, I don't know him that well.
There's a lot of things that I can say I about him but do I really really know him? No!

People keep on saying that the past months changed them in many different way.
But may I ask you, Is the change for the good? Or is it for the worst?
Or are we too involve in making ourselves center of everything that it destroys the person that we used to be?
Because I did this and that, I'm a changed person. I'm a good person.
It's not LIKE that.


You can't say that you know that person too well because you don't.
You can't conclude and say "Hey, I know you! You shouldn't blah blah blah"
You can't say you've changed if the people around you don't notice it.

Change can make or break you.
Walk the talk. ; )

On happiness

Yesterday, I passed my thesis first draft. Was I happy? A bit, yeah.
I don't know, there's something in me that's keeping me from being happy.
Maybe because I know that this coming weeks I'll be busy with revising my thesis and trying to correct the mistakes that I've done this past year. Is it too late? I'm not sure. At least I'll try to do something before I'll graduate.

I am thankful for the new and not so new (hehe) friends that I have right now.
They'll get to know you before judging. And most importantly, they'll listen to you before concluding. Thanks, guys!

I am lucky and happy to have you.
My weekly dinner-mates, plurkmates, and gossip-mates (haha!), THANK YOU! :)

[I maybe not vocal of how I appreciate you guys. At least, I know you can feel it naman right? haha]

xoxo,
_M_

On what I'm really feeling right now

Just got home from our friday gimik with Asia, Von, Jen, Del and Nico.
What a fun night! We ate dinner at Sicilian Express (treated them with Sicilian Pizza).
Then our dessert was rocky road ice cream at Treats, Petron Square, Katipunan.
Von and Nico left afterwards.
So, we (Jen, Asia, Del and I) decided to stay in Bo's Katipunan for some more QTT.
At around 11:40pm, it was Jen's time to go home. But Asia, Del and I went to Sarah's after Jen left. We saw Chad then meet up with Myk.
Though we went to four different places in one night, it wasn't that tiring. I had fun. A much needed break from acads and org. :D

With all the things happening right now... With my busy schedule.... Seriously, I don't know what/how to feel about those things. I can't cry for the reason that it's not worth crying. I can't be that too happy even because I know there's still problems needed to solve before this semester comes to an end. But one thing I'm sure and this is that I'm scared.

Yes, I'm scared about a lot of things.
Thesis, of course. Who isn't?
Graduation Day. It's fast approaching and I don't know if I'll do well enough this semester to reach the grade that I needed for cl standing.
Disappointing my parents. They've sacrificed a lot for me and the least thing I wantto do is to disappoint them. I have no right to do that.
After graduation. What's next for me? Am I going to work? Take a M.A. or M.S.?
Basically... I'm scared of the future. Of the what if's.

I'm scared of losing all the hard work we've put because of the words: commitment and dedication. I can't help but to get frustrated/disappointed. I know it's my fault why things are happening right now and I'm blaming myself for it. If I knew that this things will happen, I shouldn't have done anything. It's all my fault. If people are just brave enough to tell me the wrong things I've done, sana di na umabot sa ganito. For real.

I know my mistakes. I know I disappointed you. I know I didn't reached your expectations.
I'm sorry. I really am.

I'm praying and hoping that all these will have an answer soon.
My hope is up as always.
I know we can do this. We can!
Keep thinking positive and we'll succeed!


xoxo,
_M_

On our third weekly bonding

Kuya Francis and I went, again, on a shopping spree last week.
He never fails to treat me or buy me something whenever he got his salary.
And I appreciate it very much.




The night before he saw me crying in my room and he was soo worried.
He didn't bother to ask me what's wrong for he knows that I won't tell him my problem.
Instead, he invited me to go shopping with him. He really knows how to cheer me up.
Thanks, bro! :)



We ate at California Pizza Kitchen.
The food was pricey but it was worth it. :)




Thanks again, Kuya!
I know someday I can repay your kindness.
Pag sumweldo na ako, ipagsashopping din kita. Hehe
ILY.

xoxo,
_M_

One step away...

...in passing my first draft. All I need is the doctor's analysis and integrate it with my study then viola! first draft na! Yay!

Kelan ka ba kikilos? Pag nawala na ang katamaran ko.
Hindi parin ako makaget-over sa victory party ng org. Yeahba!
Uber fun. 5am na kami nakauwi dahil sa kwentuhan.

Starting today, haggard mode na sa HELL MONTH!
Final exams, projects, and completion of requirements para maka-martsa na ako this April.

Goodluck sa lahat! :D

Tsaka na ang emo post pag tapos na ang lahat....

xoxo
_M_

Ako. Ang Bida.

Ako ang bida kwento.
Ako ang tama.
Sila ang mali.

Ako ang bida sa kwento ng ibang tao.
Ako ang tama.
Sila ang mali.

Ako ang Bida.
Ako ang kawawa.
Ako ang api.
Ako ang TAMA.

Ano ang mali dito?
Ikaw? Ako?
O ang pagiging Bida ko?

And this is how I blahg

Blah + g / -gging.
Blahg or Blahgging is the term that I invented to refer to nonsense blog or blogging.


So this is how I blahg.

I don't know what to feel right now.
I should be happy because our major event was a success.
I should be grateful because things are going pretty well.
I know I'm tired and need a break from everything.
I know I must work (very) hard on my thesis and my 5 other subjects. Boo!

One thing is for sure, if I want to graduate this semester, I MUST NOT PROCASTINATE.
Dang! Why oh Why nauso pa ang thesis?!

And just today, I lost my Php1000. Huhu.
I'm saving it pa naman for my future gimiks pero nawalang parang bula. Boo Marj!
You're a loser!

Yeah, I'm hating myself right now.

And after all this, I want to travel.
Plans have been made but I know I needed to graduate first before I can travel. Yay!

Peace out!
_M_

LIS Congress 2009

LIS CONGRESS 2009
Everyone is Invited

The first and the biggest gathering of LIS students, educators, and library professionals.
The LIS CONGRESS 2009.

This February 28, 2009 at the UP College of Education, Auditorium
from 8:00am to 5:00pm.


Participate and Join in this big event.
See posters and fliers for details.

See you there! :)

On weekend date with my brother

Today's the second week of our "date".
My brother's is super galante pag may sweldo.
I'm not asking him to buy me this and that but he insisted me to buy whatever I want.

From GB4 to G4 Starbucks.
Movie date--Inkheart.
Dinner at Cibo.

And new pair of Havaianas! Yey!
I'm a happy little sister again.

He knows how to cheer me up by shopping. Hehe.
Brother knows best, indeed!

Thanks, Kuya Francis!
'Til our next weekend date! :)

xoxo,
_M_

On my kilig moments today

May bago akong crush! Haha.
Yaheard it!
New serious crush.

It was fun and uber kilig talking to him.
I just met him recently.
Major turn on sakin pag napapaamaze ako ng isang tao with the way he thinks and speaks.
We talked for about an hour.
Kwentuhan lang pero hindi ung getting to know na kwentuhan.
More on Seryosong usapan pero hindi boring.
Di ako nailang na kausap sya.

Di rin naman sya kagwapuhan or ganun ka cute. Tama lang.
There's something sa mata nea kapag nagsasalita sya and pag tumatawa. Haaay. Sana matagal tagal kaming nagusap. Sana maulit ung moment na un. Sana talaga.

When he talks, nakikipagtitigan ako. Or pag naiilan na ako, umiiwas ako. Pero titig parin ako sakanya. He's very nice. Haha. Kinikilig ako. Ke landeh lang noh?

I'm in love! Not. Crush lang.
Pero let's see kung may patutunguhan ito. :D

xoxo,
_M_

On politics

I grew up in a political family, maternal and paternal sides, where everyone seems to be involved in everything about politics. Luckily, my parents are not politicians but the rest of my family is.

One thing I learned from them is you always need to take a stand whether others will like it or not. You can't just say "No comment!" or "keber" to an issue because as a politician you are involve with everything. Seriously.

Another thing in being a politician is you need to be professional because you are working for the people. There's a dividing line between personal and professional life. Politics is strictly professional and when you get too personal with it, you loose. People will say anything and everything about you, laging may masasabi sila, because you're a public figure everything you say and do will, as they say, be used against you.

Whenever people are not agreeing with your ideas or principles, its ok, take your stand. But don't get angry or frustrated to them and most importantly don't get too personal. Don't consider them voicing their opinions as an attack. It's their way of telling you and making you know what they think about the situation and the issues, for that matter. Because at the end of the day, it's just work. Yup, just work.

Taking my stand and being professional are the things that I've learned from politics. Not that I know everything about it. Let's all be professional when we are called to do so. We can't just hate someone because of his/her opinions. We need to respect their opinions as they respect ours.


R.E.S.P.E.C.T.
xoxo,
_M_

On missing my sister

My sister arrived from China late last night. We didn't got the chance to talk, the usual "hi" and "kamusta ang graduating?". I didn't even know that she's arriving but I wasn't shocked to know. Oh well, that's how our life is right now. We're not that close really but we like same things, we used to go shopping together, and kwentuhan about UP. She's my idol when it comes to studying. She graduated elementary, high school, and college with flying colors. I can never do what she did.

I'm missing her a lot this days (years). When I was in Baguio during my freshie year, she used to visit me and vice versa. Then I decided to transfer here in Diliman to be close to her and to my older brothers but she left for Vietnam that very same year. We never really got to bond for a long time and when she came back she introduced us to her boyfriend/fiance. I liked him at first but I'm hating him now for taking away my sister from me. Selfish I know but that's what really happenning right now. Since she started working abroad and whenever she comes back we're like not sisters. She'll just say Hi and I'll say Hello.

Earlier tonight, I saw this note saying "To My Little Sister. Love Ate". I can't help but cry. Honestly, I want to spend a day with her and just be with her, my dearest Ate. Maybe someday we'll spend more time with one another... Maybe someday everything will be back to normal... Maybe someday I'll have my Ate back... Maybe someday... Maybe.

I miss you and I love you, Ate.

You little sister,
_M_

On the things that I want

Been searching online for the things that I want to buy or my dad can buy for me. But, I can't ask me them to buy this and that for I know they're are working hard for us to have a good life and buying these gadgets is just a "waste of money" for them and besides I can buy this stuff myself when I start to work or win a contest? LOL.

I'm gaga over this gadgets:
1. PowerShot SD990 IS
2. HP Pavilion dv5t Special edition series
3. Sony Ericsson Xperia X1

Oh well, I'm saving up now for our (Teddy and I) trip abroad after graduation. This is our gift to ourselves after four years of studying in college. Gawd. Wish that I can save until April or May.
I do accept donations and/or free tickets to anywhere in and out of the country. LOL.

I want to do a lot of things but money is keeping me from doing them. I can't wait til grad to work and earn my own money so that I won't bother my parents re allowance and other expenses. :(

On Studying Abroad

I really really want to study abroad. I like going from one place to another. I like adventures and experiencing new things. I want to step out of my comfort zone. I want challenge. I want to do a lot of things. But first, I have to graduate.

Thesis is my boyfriend. I know I can finish my thesis this semester, di pwedeng hindi. I have a lot of plans, I want to grow pa. My priority now is to finish college. My lovelife can wait, seriously. I can't manage having a bf, leading an organization and academics all at the same time, that's suicide.

I'm just thankful that everything's going pretty well. I just need to be determined and to stick to my plans. I need to have fun and to enjoy my last semester.

So dear friends, bear with my ngarag and wala sa mood days. Two months. Yes, two months nalang. :)

_M_

On winning

It's nice seeing your name posted online and people congratulating you because of what you did.
Last November 24, 2008, we (with Partner Luis) were one of the contestants of LIS Wizards hosted by PATLS. We ranked 3rd, not good though. We were hoping to at least to ranked 2nd. We did our best but I guess our best wasn't good enough. Drama lang! Hehe.

It was a sweet win. Thanks Partner Luis! :)

Here's the link: http://patls.org/